" I cant forgive cant forget cant give in what went wrong cause you said this was right, you fucked up my life "

Lol kidding, you havent. You are so good at giving me false hope. You know damn well that im still hoping. If you dont care, what is that bitch ass attitude for. As much as I want to talk to you, I wouldnt want if you dont want to. What for if you're not sincere. You have no idea how dumb and pathetic you make me feel. Idk, im still angry. Ive not said everything that I wanted to. And its burning inside. I do not want to put it here, I want to tell it to someone. I really want to tell you but no, you dont care. You always make me feel rejected. Always. From when we were together, till now. I can never really tell my problems to you. Screw you for not caring. Your attitude now, has made me get over you. Eventhough the feelings are still there, its gonna be easy, I hope. Lol who am I kidding. K whatever

Nobody cares anyway,

Gud lyf~

When I talk to someone, I tend to forget about all the other person they could be talking too. And for a second, I would feel special. And in that second, I get my hopes up but I'll end up getting disappointed and being sad about it. It sucks to know that nobody cares and that you're only their back up. I should stop expecting, but I cant help it. Nvm I dont know, I just cant put my feelings into words.

Uhm. Thank god for this blog. Or else I might die from keeping everything inside, haha. I'd rather work because at least the people there acknowledge my existence. I really need to find a hobby. I cant just laze around. And shall start studying soon. And once I get my pay, shopping................alone. Ok no, I hope not. Ok shall try my luck with the guitar

O wait, I think my posts are all too attention seeking or is it? Idk, but thn again, no one reads my blog. So uhm later people judge me. Hmmmmmmmmm, story of my life.

You may think that im complaining. Ok maybe I am but I can only hold everything for so long you know. Im tired. Of not having anyone there for me. Im lonely, you have no idea. You dont understand. Nobody does. I should be happy but im not. I like being sad eventhough it hurts. Ive got rejected way too many times. I just need to talk to someone but nobody is going to understand. Yes, I crave for attention but not in an attention-seeking-bitch way. Im scared that when I tell people my problems, they would think im asking for sympathy. I just need to know that someone is willing to be there for me. But right now, it seems like no one is. I dont know, they just wouldnt understand. And I cant help being sensitive. I hate it, sometimes I wish I didnt care. I cry over small things. It may not matter to anyone but it does to me. No matter how small it is. It sucks to be me

God dammit :/

Why do I have to be so sensitive. Chill la aqilah, its not like you mean anything to anyone -.-

Hmm, I feel so down. I feel sad. I feel rejected. I feel unwanted. I feel worthless.

Aww teared up talking to hendra (':

Would never want to lose someone like him hahaha