Anything

2011-12-22T05:35:00.001-08:00

" I cant forgive cant forget cant give in what went wrong cause you said this was right, you fucked up my life "

Lol kidding, you havent. You are so good at giving me false hope. You know damn well that im still hoping. If you dont care, what is that bitch ass attitude for. As much as I want to talk to you, I wouldnt want if you dont want to. What for if you're not sincere. You have no idea how dumb and pathetic you make me feel. Idk, im still angry. Ive not said everything that I wanted to. And its burning inside. I do not want to put it here, I want to tell it to someone. I really want to tell you but no, you dont care. You always make me feel rejected. Always. From when we were together, till now. I can never really tell my problems to you. Screw you for not caring. Your attitude now, has made me get over you. Eventhough the feelings are still there, its gonna be easy, I hope. Lol who am I kidding. K whatever

Nobody cares anyway,

Gud lyf~

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2011-12-20T09:00:00.001-08:00

When I talk to someone, I tend to forget about all the other person they could be talking too. And for a second, I would feel special. And in that second, I get my hopes up but I'll end up getting disappointed and being sad about it. It sucks to know that nobody cares and that you're only their back up. I should stop expecting, but I cant help it. Nvm I dont know, I just cant put my feelings into words.

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2011-12-19T21:10:00.001-08:00

Uhm. Thank god for this blog. Or else I might die from keeping everything inside, haha. I'd rather work because at least the people there acknowledge my existence. I really need to find a hobby. I cant just laze around. And shall start studying soon. And once I get my pay, shopping................alone. Ok no, I hope not. Ok shall try my luck with the guitar

O wait, I think my posts are all too attention seeking or is it? Idk, but thn again, no one reads my blog. So uhm later people judge me. Hmmmmmmmmm, story of my life.

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2011-12-19T05:17:00.001-08:00

You may think that im complaining. Ok maybe I am but I can only hold everything for so long you know. Im tired. Of not having anyone there for me. Im lonely, you have no idea. You dont understand. Nobody does. I should be happy but im not. I like being sad eventhough it hurts. Ive got rejected way too many times. I just need to talk to someone but nobody is going to understand. Yes, I crave for attention but not in an attention-seeking-bitch way. Im scared that when I tell people my problems, they would think im asking for sympathy. I just need to know that someone is willing to be there for me. But right now, it seems like no one is. I dont know, they just wouldnt understand. And I cant help being sensitive. I hate it, sometimes I wish I didnt care. I cry over small things. It may not matter to anyone but it does to me. No matter how small it is. It sucks to be me

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2011-12-17T09:17:00.001-08:00

God dammit :/

Why do I have to be so sensitive. Chill la aqilah, its not like you mean anything to anyone -.-

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2011-12-16T06:49:00.001-08:00

Hmm, I feel so down. I feel sad. I feel rejected. I feel unwanted. I feel worthless.

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2011-12-12T12:05:00.001-08:00

Aww teared up talking to hendra (':

Would never want to lose someone like him hahaha

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2011-12-08T07:35:00.001-08:00

You have no idea how much of a loner I am now

Am positive that the 2 person I want to talk to the most, hates me

O wait, everyone else too

Yeap, story of my life

Im never anyone's choice, never. Ever.

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2011-12-04T12:30:00.001-08:00

All I can do is drown in my misery ;(

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I have no fucking idea why I cant write in the fucking text box. so anws just needed to vent my anger. insensitive motherfucker fuck you cb

2011-11-24T09:12:00.000-08:00

2011-06-27T07:22:00.000-07:00

Haaaai

So many things happened haishh

ok i malas
anws ruzanna, if you're reading this, hello :>
;D loooool k bye

2011-06-09T02:31:00.000-07:00

Hi im so bored lulzz
sooo nth much happened, i guess
im just killing time till we are ready to
go, to kl heh heh
i have no idea why im excited
maybe its because ive nt been thr aft 7456317321452 years huhh
hahaha ok and my birthday is comingggg
and on that day i have ndp rehearsal, bummer!
and things are fine now, i think
well, i hope so
i want it to stay this way, wouldnt want to screw this up
okayzz i will be on tumblr
its cooler there k bai

2011-05-09T06:58:00.000-07:00

- hell to the yeah \m/ i met bieber's crew members, even knuckle-punched thm

lol i sound so fucking depressed in the previous posts
im so fucking lame
nvm its been so long since ive written something in here
tumblr is th shiaaat, just sayingg
lol ok this happiness is just temporary

2011-03-19T09:41:00.000-07:00

im tired,really tired. emotionally tired.
im tired of asking are you ok. i think i might have asked idk more than 20?
yea but all i get ''nth is wrong''. obviously there is something wrong and you won't tell me
if you dont want to tell me just say it,so i wouldnt have to ask you if you're okay and then annoy you haish and if by any chance you,happen to read this. not tht i dont care. i really do but i dont know how else i can make you feel better,really i dont. im sorry tht i cant help and im adding to your misery. and whatever tht is bothering you,i am assuring tht it will eventually get better. even if it doesnt,you'll get used to it and yea,get over it i guess. i dont even know wht im saying.

now it seems like you're less interested in me. you're ignoring me. if you dont want to talk to me,just tell me. im tired of asking you to talk to me. but its because i want to,i kept bothering you. im sorry im not good enough. im sorry im not like other girls. let me go if you want to. so i wouldnt have to worry anymore.

i dont know who you are now? you are really different. totally different person from who i knew two years ago. you dont have to trouble yourself you know,like wasting your time talking to me whn you really dont want to. its cool,since i let everything down the drain,just like that. im not expexting anything as well. its just sad tht we are different now. not like how we used to be. you are different now. i dont even know why im bothered whn actually i dont even crossed your mind once. not even as a friend. you're scary now. idk,im sorry. for myself at least :/

i guess you wont find the happy me here aha,this blog shall be the place where i pour my feelings out. but i wont talk about it irl. please dont,i might just break down.
the feeling's coming back.

2011-03-12T06:02:00.000-08:00

SARCASTIC LITTLE FUCK

2011-02-12T00:13:00.000-08:00

you dont knw how important you are.
you just find every reason to shw me,at least,tht you're not.
you dont see wht we are always trying to do. you know.
its really unfair. we are doing everything we can for you.
and yet you find every reason to say tht you dont matter. its annoying ok

sarcastic little fuck. i may not knw whts going on on but tht doesnt mean
you know everything im going through. thr are reason why i dont tell people stuffs.

does it really matter if you're the first or the last to know? you are as important as everyone else.

imagine how those ppl whom i dont tell feel? so can you be happy tht at least,you know.

at least,you're th one i want to tell. and so now you are trying to make

me feel how you felt. if you dont want to tell me i wont even bother

asking la ok. yea i suck as a frd im an annoying bitch selfish cunt. everything.
i dont even deserve to be your frd. yes true. i dont.
i dont deserve anything in this world.

2011-02-05T08:22:00.000-08:00

no one understand what im going through.
no one will. i dont even want to explain.
ive explained too much tht people dont want to bother anymore

and its the same thing tht keeps bothering me
i want to say so much but i dont want to bother anyone

with my misery. and even if i tell them,they would probably say everything's

gonna be alright but deep down i know it wont. it will nv be. i know.

and if anyone wants to kill me,please by all means,
i give you the honours of doing so. its all the little things that made

everything so big. no one knws wht i go through,everyday.
i want to let it all out. i just dont know how. and screw my guts.

im afraid.

2011-02-01T05:28:00.000-08:00

I FUCKING HATE MYSELF I REALLY DO
OMG SCREW EVERYTHING MY EXISTENCE
DOESNT MEAN A THING

2011-01-15T08:02:00.000-08:00

i am so pathetic,i know.

everytime i need someone to talk to,

i'll turn to this blog.

i seriously have no one to talk to.

really. uhh facebook?

i dont think anyone would even care about me and my problems.

msn? not a single one who cares.

my friends? how the fuck am i supposed to contact them?

facebook? they are nt replying,screw fb.

msn? they are nt online.

my fucking phone. i have no fucking prepaid.

why? because i cant ask my for money from my mum or dad

why? my mum doesnt like me,i know. cus im her daughter.

my dad? he wont talk to me.

how the fuck am i supposed to ask fr money.

but money is not the point.

the point is,i seriously need someone to talk to

and my screwed up phone,god. it deletes texts by itself.

and the internet connection is literally fucked up.

i mean i am not complaining but i cant keep it to myself.

it has been bothering me.

and if i were to type this long ass post and the internet

decides to screw itself,idk what is gg to happen to me.

i am tired of crying already. i just cried. it doesnt make me feel better.

not at all. now you know how screwed my life is.

yes there is people much worse than me.

but i just need soeone to hear me out.

okay if you think im annoying,stop reading this.

cus im nt expecting anyone to read this. i just had to pour my feelings out.

i can go on about how fucked up my life is but i wont say fml just yet.

nvm,you guys will nvr understand me. nobody will.

2011-01-11T05:20:00.000-08:00

hi. ive never felt any worse. really.
th feeling of not being wanted.

everyone hates me. my dad,my mum and especially the

granny who taught me ngaji. i feel so useless and hopeless.

thrs no broght side whn your own dad hates you. when he doesnt

talk to you for almost a week. its really depressing.

and things thts happening in sch isnt any better.

firstly dance. i screwed up. big time. thrs selection this friday

and i barely know my steps. secondly,studies. omg i am so dumb i

swear. i think im th dumb-est person in my class or most probably the

whole sch. i seriously need help. i am so hopeless

do you know how bad tht feels? i just wish tht th ground cn

open and eat me up. but i wont say fml. it isnt tht bad to be fucked.

im still happy tht im alive,and i have frds and im nt a loner.

i have books i have bags and clothes.

and i am so so grateful tht i have internet omg or else i'll have no frds at home.

no one to talk to. thank god.

and i have no hope of meeting Justin Bieber....

i feel so much better aft typing it out. ok i shd probably do some revisions.

bye

2010-12-30T23:47:00.000-08:00

CAN 31 DECEMBER 2010 GET ANY WORSE?!
PEOPLE ARE BEING SO FUCKING ANNOYING OMG.

SUCH PAIN IN THE ASS

-'-

2010-12-30T09:35:00.000-08:00

so 2010 is coming to an end.
its pretty much, bad.

These last few weeks,it has been really sad

but on a lighter note,i did enjoy myself.

shit happens,but whatever. its all over.

even though my appeal wasnt successful,i hope i'll do well

in my current class. and all those tears was wasted.

so moving on,2010 was alright. im grateful for everything tht

has happened. i hope 2011 would be a better year.

i really cant afford to waste any more time.

i dont really have any new year resolutions. i just find it dumb

tht people only wants to change only during new year.

well duh,its new year -.- but i mean im just saying.

and yea,i really hope i'll still keep in touch with all

the friends that ive made. perhaps make new frds.

uhh actually its really no big deal. it'll still be the same

and i think ive gotten a screwed up principal. cool.

2010-12-11T10:43:00.000-08:00

its 5minutes to 3am and im still not asleep.

ive been sleeping at 3/4 am these few days.

its really annoying tht i just cant sleep

hmmmm im still worried cus ive nt call th sch yet.

and yesss,mummy promised to call tht guy(idk who)

please i really wna work and i am excited for sch i

cant wait for sch to reopen. tht means i have to pull my

socks real high. thrs no time for slacking anymore.

and idk,ive been contemplating to start afresh.

i mean,i need to talk to someone about it. i reckon everyone's busy

with their own stuffs. i really need to talk to someone.

i miss hira and alysa so much ): it has been such a long time

hmmmm and thank god thrs cca this monday

so currently,things tht are on my to-do list are

-call the sch and make appointment with vp

-call tht guy(idk who)

-find a job lololololol
-start revising and do my hw.

as you can see,meeting vp is currently my priority

this mean so much to me i really want it and this is my last hope

please God i want this so badly. i really want to do well nxt yr

yea,you cn see how desperate i am.

alright everything is just so dull and boring.

tht is why i need to do something productive like get a job

getting a job would also benefit me hehehe

and i need to get stuffs for sch sooooo yea.

okay,there comes a time where i need to talk to someone and i have

no one to talk to,i'll just turn to my blog. even though no one drop by anymore

i dont care hah.

k bai

2010-12-07T06:56:00.000-08:00

just shoo cool and awesyum

k shuddup.

2010-12-07T00:09:00.000-08:00

WHY THE FUCK CANT I GO SWIMMING?! OH MY GOODNESS FOR GOD'S SAKE IT IS NOT SUNNY ANYMORE! AND I AM ALREADY TANNED!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WANT TO FUCKING SWIM OMG IF I GET TANNED HOW DOES THAT AFFECT YOU. STOP BEING SO PARANOID OKAY I AM ALREADY TANNED/

2010-12-04T07:53:00.000-08:00

- my baby

and yay i accidentally deleted previous post.

tsk stupid me.

i am feeling soooooo alone i am so bored la

i was having fun justnow but nt anymore.

was watching cool youtube vids and was biebering

okay mummy is gonna bring me fr dessert buffet yay food *-*
ok no,but whtever im still gonna drag her to ion hehehe
since she didnt let me go kl with abg
and guess what. i woke up at 4.30
no wonder i was hungry i was lying down thinking wht i sd eat for

breakfast zzzzzzzzz i thought it was 11 or 12 -.-

i am so sad ok. no one wants to talk to me
it is very depressing i am so glad i have my baby (Bieber)
hehehe,prasan sikit. k shuddup im so annoying
and again,guess what?
i went to sch ystd to meet the principal but they told me to come back on th 15th

what the fuck. i knowwww its so annoying

i wrote one long letter alr. ok not me but still

waste everyone's time ok. asshole. whatever la stupid sch.

k im just sayin not expecting anyone to read my blog or whtever

k bai

2010-11-23T02:28:00.000-08:00

love

p/s: not really a new song.

2010-11-22T00:48:00.000-08:00

today is my dearest baby's birthday.
Hira <3

hahahahhaa
Happy Birthday Hiraaaaaa,i hope you're having fun where ever you are now

and please take care of yourself and also please reply my fb msg ): <>

-look at his tail,so cute k

hmm,ive been doing pretty dumb things like uploading videos and their lyrics.
maybe it doesnt make sense to you all but it does to me.

i have no idea how to make it clear to you la.
i hope you're reading this and the previous posts and the lyrics.
cos indirectly,im trying to tell you how i feel.
i have no idea whts going on now :/
i hope you still feel the same way as i do.

okay anws,manymany ppl went Perth alr. its gonna be really quiet for these 5 days.

on saturday had open house. our sch cannot make it la -.-

so okay yeaa. thts all.
and i wna go out la,stuck at home doing nth tskkk/

i also wna go Perth hahahaha

k enough

bye peepole

2010-11-22T00:44:00.000-08:00

-the video is kinda dumb but some of the lyrics actually make sense :/

I probably shouldn't say this
But at times I get so scared
When I think about the previous
Relationship we shared

It was awesome but we lost it
It's not possible for me not to care
And now we're standing in the rain
But nothing's ever gonna change
Until you hear, my dear

The 7 things I hate about you!
The 7 things I hate about you, oh you
You're vain, your games, you're insecure
You love me, you like her
You make me laugh, you make me cry
I don't know which side to buy

Your friends, they're jerks
When you act like them, just know it hurts
I wanna be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you

It's awkward and silent
As I wait for you to say
What I need to hear now
Your sincere apology

When you mean it, I'll believe it
If you text it, I'll delete it
Let's be clear
Oh, I'm not coming back
You're taking 7 steps here

The 7 things I hate about you!
You're vain, your games, you're insecure
You love me, you like her
You make me laugh, you make me cry
I don't know which side to buy

Your friends, they're jerks
When you act like them, just know it hurts
I wanna be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you

And compared to all the great things
That would take too long to write
I probably should mention the 7 that I like

The 7 things I like about you!
Your hair, your eyes, your old Levi's
When we kiss I'm hypnotized
You make me laugh, you make me cry
But I guess that's both I'll have to buy

Your hands in mine
When we're intertwined, everything's alright
I wanna be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I like most that you do
You make me love you, you do

2010-11-22T00:35:00.000-08:00

These days you barely even say my name

Like you don't really feel the same

I'm wondering what's to blame

These nights I fall asleep wondering where you are

It feels like we're falling apart

And it's only breaking my heart

'Cause if being with you means being alone

And never knowing when you're coming home

Then I guess I'm better off on my own

But I can't move on 'cause that means forgetting

Forgetting everything we had

Instead I keep running keep running

I keep running back

'Cause I keep forgetting

Forgetting you treat me so bad

So I keep on coming keep coming

I keep coming back

I keep coming back I keep coming back

And I keep running back I keep running back

I keep coming back I keep coming back

And I keep running back I keep running back

My friends say that I should leave you behind

And stop wasting all of my time

They tell me that I'm outta my mind

But I know that what we both share is real

And I've been willing to deal

With the way that you're making me feel

'Cause if being with you means being alone

And never knowing when you're coming home

Then I guess I'm better off on my own

But I can't move on 'cause that means forgetting

Forgetting everything we had

Instead I keep running keep running

I keep running back

'Cause I keep forgetting

Forgetting you treat me so bad

So I keep on coming keep coming

I keep coming back

I keep coming back I keep coming back

And I keep running back I keep running back

I keep coming back I keep coming back

And I keep running back I keep running back

Mama caught up

We done all heard the same story

Just different authors

This book crazy always a lady

Looking for love where there's a maybe

They might could be together

They fight to be together

A'ight to be together

Shorty yeah he cheated

You say you don't need it

Turn around and leave it

Oh he back next week

Fuss Fight and then the whole thing

Repeat like nothing ever happened

Dat was just rapping

No publishing

Shorty you knew that he don't got the same government

Lil mama can't move on

But it's her fault she struggling

She can't move on

But I can't move on

'Cause that means forgetting

Forgetting everything we had

Instead I keep running keep running

I keep coming back I keep coming back

I keep running back and I keep running back

I keep coming back I keep coming back

And I keep running I keep running back

I keep coming back and I keep coming back

I keep coming back and I keep running

I keep running back to you

2010-11-06T10:23:00.000-07:00

you fucking moron stop being so fucking sarcastic can or not?!
fucking asshole go fuck yourself upside down inside out la
please la,do you have to do this to me everytime yes i know its my

fucking fault but you dont have to bring it up every fucking time
its the fucking past god damn it. im trying to not talk to you to let it go la please la.

cant you just let it go. i feel like im not good enough alr you dont

have to make me feel worse. what is your fucking point

what are you trying to do huh? if you're trying to make me feel bad

then bravo you're doing an awesome job.

seriously,stop wasting your fucking time dwelling on the past la.

just stfu if you have nth good to say.

dont talk to me if you're only gg to be all sarcastic

have a wonderful life -'-

fucking bitch make me wanna kill myself

go fuck yourself

2010-11-04T09:25:00.001-07:00

Dear blog,

it seems that no one reads this blog of mine alr.

its a good thing though. so i can express myself.

so,ive been depressed. ok,nt really depressed,sad.

i fucking hate myself. im such a useless person.

please la,i cant even make my bestfriend happy.

what the fuck much. yea,sure i have bestfriends but come on,

its really obvious that im not worth their time.

all i can depend on is myself. all i can talk to is me,myself and i.

yea,sure i do need someone to talk to. but then again,

im not worth anyone's listening ear. or a shoulder to lean on.

not that im complaining or whatever but i really need someone to talk to.

im being so fucking annoying here.i should just go and die.

okay,maybe not die. perhaps its true the world is better off

without me but i shall just shut up instd of die. i shd be happy tht im

alive. but unfortunately,no one else is. no one is happy tht im here.

i wont be surprised by the number of people who hates me.

they have like 1001 reasons to hate me. so its nt really their fault

if they hate me. its kinda reasonable. k,not kinda. very.

and maybeeee,coincidentally,someone who hates me is reading this post.
in their mind they would probably be like ''everyone hates you bitch'' or

'' no,you shdnt just shut up,you shd go and die '' or
'' stop complaining asshole,its really annoying ''

hmm,idk. and im not expecting anyone to read this post la.

i just need to pour my feelings out.
note to everyone :
i am very sorry if ive hurt/annoyed/made you angry etc.
in any ways. i knw i shd live my own life. i shd mind my own business.

i shd realise that no one wants to be my friend. i shd stop complaining.

note to self :

stop complaining and shut the fuck up.

2010-11-03T08:41:00.000-07:00

-we so cool from fire nation. we attacked this place hehehe

I want Bintan outing please ):
I miss bintan people,i miss camp people,

i miss kampong pelegong people,i miss 2e1 people
what is this? hmmmmm
anws,i had fun. i enjoyed myself at Bintan. I did nt regret
a single bit. i wont forget the fun we had nyehehe
soooooooo its the holidays but november,i have a really busy schedule
cute or whaaaat tht im busy hahahha k -.-

good news! good news!
i am starting to learn how to skateeeee! so cool!
actually ive been praticing like long time ago. k not long time ago
but for quite some time but unfortunately,i gain nth. soooooo
now im like more serious hehehe since its the holidays
im gg to buy one whn i have money k?
so far,things isnt going good. not at all. actually idk whts happening

between me and him la eh. its really depressing for some weird reason.
and and i would tell you guys abt Bintan some othr time cos now i lazyyyy
hehehe,holidays my prangai like pig please. everyday hungry everyday tired.

i am excited im gg to learn how to skate! i have all the elbow pads and knee pads ready
got helmet also! excited la hehehe
okay tmr no plan ): friday is comingggggggggg,i cant wait
okay very draggy la this post. you guys just wasted your time hahahaha
i<3bintancliques

2010-10-24T09:46:00.000-07:00

-cute,ikr hehehe

it has been ages since i last updated
so my life is pretty much screwed. ive nt told my parents my results yet.

i failed 2 subjects. what an asshole.
and sch is gonna end sooooon tht means this is the last week that 2e1
is gg to spend time together in tht class. eeeeee
nvm,thrs still class chalet hehehe
planning k? and i want to work la please.

i need $$ waiting for tht job,so slow.

and since i'll be working on weekends,tht means i cn work
on weekdays during hols yay me (which means more $$ HAHA)
and im so gonna learn how to skate
ive been waiting since foreverrr. k,no
and its 12.50am. thrs sch tmr (Y)
i swear sch is giving us bullshit eeee gross la our sch

kay,i shd probably catch those zzzzzzzzzzz
bye

Yanaaaaa!

2010-10-05T07:08:00.001-07:00

Heyy! I hacked into Aq's account!
nyahahaa! dhe malas nk update.poor thing.
lazybum!
anyways Exam is comingg ,Exam is comingg Exam is cominggggg!
better start revising!
ohh2!
Aqilah LOVE Junhui !
wheeeee!

k bye!

2010-09-17T09:23:00.000-07:00

some people might think im trying to seek attention eh -.-

nvm,wont talk much abt it. might be accused of spreading.
oooppss,guilty. hello,whole world knows alr la k,

sooo,exams are just hiding behind the pillar. it is going to reveal itself soon.

and it's gg to be horribleeeee ):

Principal might as well send us for cip to other countries instd of spending the money on papers fr exams. tskk,so much for saving the earth -.-

k,people are being very annoying lately. and oh,i am screwed. i am so gg to flunk my finals.

and omg,i can feel the stress. damn,i hate history teacher. it isnt going anywhere.

i hope she realised that everytime she steps into our class,she is wasting her time.

i pity her ):

i shall stop complaining and enjoy my live. dont care what other people says

cos im gg to die -.-
and guess what?! i can watch videos alr,k bye.

-dftba,

kitty willy

2010-08-26T07:41:00.000-07:00

ouch

spot no. 5? x)

h-o-t

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA!

2010-08-11T07:55:00.000-07:00

omg! one word,awesome! it was amazing!

i want to watch it again. i wanna watch it 278643287642378643217 times can?

HAHAHA! watched The Last airbender, watched Stomp The Yard 2.
Omg,stomp te yard 2 was kinda awesome. hahaha! soooooo cool.

okay,i shd shut up. haha!

kay,tmr having two TAs and i didnt even open up my book.

-____________________-
kay bye.

dftba!

2010-08-05T07:47:00.000-07:00

Dear blog,

Okay,what a way to start. Hehe,

soooooooooo as usual. manymany things happened.

waahhhh,i feel like escaping from reality.

So its like, there are many trinagles right now,

if you know wht im talking about. kay,you guys dont. -.-

soo my studies. its not getting any better. stagnant la.

i am so screwed. nvm,at least i have a life.

yeaaa, thts about it i guess.

short and sweet,hah. i swear bieber is getting hotter and cuter.

and omg,loads of newsssss abt him. kay la, fasting starts next week.

kinda excited. and oh yeah,im gg lan. lqtm. hehehe,like for the first time ehh.

den aft tht thr will be this YOG thingy. yeaaa.

okay,enough. bye

dftba

2010-07-12T07:05:00.000-07:00

life is awesome.

not.

and sooo ive nt been updating this blog.

a lot happened. a lot.

so its like the third week of sch?

and loads of tests are coming up.

hws piling up. i hate dnt.

so my weekend were awesome.

sch was alright as per usual.

i am very lazy to update this blog

and i guess i wont be updating it.

kay, ive to buck up on everything.

every single thing.

2010-07-02T06:51:00.000-07:00

- hehehehe, Bieber is singleee. :D

- ): and nobody paid attention.

hellohello. im so laz to update blog these days. seriouslyyyy.

Had sports day just now.

It went frm awesome to crap. hahahha!

okay nt crap la, frm awesome to boring.

aft sch had luch at ljs and saw hot yusof. HAHAHAHAHA!

okay -.- met mummy thr

and i went thr alone. how sadd.

Okay i am so bored. byeeeee.

2010-06-30T07:03:00.000-07:00

i am like sooo relieved whn i see no. 3. read it okay people, no illuminati. swear he's freakin cute! and sarcastic. hehehehe, i likee. hehe, i love you too Bieber xD

heyho.

ive been very busy lately. not!

hehehehe, just plain lazy. as simple as tht.

just now i gt caught sleeping in class (:

hahahahha! hilarious y'know.

cikgu hasan very the merepek. okay, im doing th sports day props.

so looking forward to it. dunno why.

and like for th first time ever, Ms Yuen was absent. heheheh

okay bye.

2010-06-26T11:54:00.000-07:00

- cooool :DD hohoho? xD

soooooooooooo just now i updated den everything was lost. -.-

so on fri, went vivo. pics on fb but little ):

had fun and thanks kakayu for th treat and th presents. hehehe

ystd which was sat, went jb for nth. yep, assholeeeeee.

actually its 3 am now la. dun feel like watching th world cup.

hehehehe. later aftn maybe meeting shekyn. :D

tht retarded cousin of mine :D hahahahaha!

okay and also tmr, bro's getting engaged/if nt idk.

im nt allowed to follow so thts why im meeting shekyn. hehehe

and my dad said abg's getting married next yr. like wow!

hehehe, having sis-in-law sooon. pretty y'knoww. :D

okay la, so bored. i think im joining baba, watch world cup.

kay bye.

2010-06-25T10:33:00.001-07:00

2010-06-24T08:58:00.000-07:00

- ooohhhhhhhh, illuminati, now i understand. -.-

hellooooooo.

seriously, everything's such a bore!

really, i swear.

tsk3 and sch's starting like in 3 days time and ive nt done my

homeworks. awesome. just awesome.

and tmrw i am gg out with my lovely cousins, to where idk.

and saturday, i wanna go to th flea but mummy dont want.

anybody wants to go? seriously. anyone?

i want to go!

okay bye. im bored.

2010-06-23T08:49:00.000-07:00

Dammit, i saw those shoes again.

i want. haha! really

i asked mummy to ask th salesperson how much it costs

and she said smth else -.-''

mummy: everything tht justin bieber owns, she wants to get it.

salesperson: *laughs*

me: -.-'', *whisper* dia tau justin bieber ke?

mummy: of course la.

walau. but its expensiveeeeeee and im gonna save, i dun care.

and i want a nike too ): '' i wanna be a billionaire so freakin bad..''

for now, thrs loads of stuffs in my mind tht i wanna get.

yeaaa, im gg to save cos mummy wont buy allllllll of th stuffs.

later i bargain with her again la. hehehe :D

but i count alr, i nd to save like a lot. ):

like tht how? alamak. seriously, i swear thrs loads!

and for the last time....I WANT TO SKATE!

mummy doesnt want me to but see la.

me : i wanna skate okay.

mummy: dun nonsense
me: tsk, i want la, its soo cool.

im gg to learn and den im gg to buy one.

mummy: nono, if you buy, im gg to throw.

me: ):<

whatthellmuch? but i spoke to her in malay la, muahaha.

i asked baba and he allowed soooo wheeee! but he kept asking me where.

-.-'' i also dunno, belum apa-apa lagi da tanya mana -.-'

and now, i am like so bored. sooooooooo bored ):

nobody's talking to me or nobody wants to talk to me ):

and ive nt done my hws ):

I AM SO LAZYYYYY! i tk nak buat la.

bye.

2010-06-22T08:56:00.000-07:00

again, I WANT TO SKATE!

i am so angry

tsk, seriously. i dunno why and i dunno how.

okay, just now 1 day wasted.

i slept at 5 am and woke up at 6pm.

so sadd. watching later's match.

kay bye.

2010-06-21T07:19:00.000-07:00

I WANT TO SKATE!

idk why and idk how.

but i want ):

anws, went to iqbal's. i swear he's sooo merepek and cute!

before tht ate at bbq chicken.

it was awesome! okay, but muak.

and i am so bored. im waiting for spain's match.

im so jealous of girls who skates. so cool

kay la bye.

im bored i swear.

somebody talk to me!!!!

2010-06-20T07:00:00.000-07:00

-woah! look at those pink stuff. idk wht you call tht but its awesome! and smith is soooooo
cute! :D

hellooooo. i have so many junk food inside my fridge.

2 boxes of cakes, box of donuts, a packet of small donuts,

cadbury desserts, twisties etc.

its a good thing though. so everytime i go to th fridge,

ill haf something to eat. and lately, i eat a lot. like a LOT.

and now im hungry, im craving for swensen's, kfc, dbl cheeseburger.

and i wanna watch brazil's match later on so i think im gg

to be on fb till 2+ ? hmmm, let see how la.

and im really hoping tht tmr, im gg out.

so just now, went ubi, courts, ikea.

i gt myself a notice board. for notices, duh.

andand since today's was Father's Day, mummy asked baba whr

he wanted to eat. he wasnt interested and i was annoyed.

and i was hungry at tht time. we ended up gg home since abg was waiting for us.

and he is getting engaged soon. and i swear, im rlly bored.

soembody, talk to me! really, pls. Alysa left alr. ):

i am so jealous! andand, i really wanna bake.

i love cooking, baking etc. seriously.

okay, shush. its 1.35am, waiting for brazil's match against i forgot.

kay,shush.

bye

2010-06-19T09:42:00.000-07:00

hey morons.

went jb -.-

seriously, -.-''

so i went thr and i ate. a lot. like a lot.

really, really. and i bought a lot of foooooods!

i love food -.-

wheeeee! i wanna go UWC! I hope Bieber will go thr.

hahahaha! thn my dream will com trueeeeeee!

andd im excited, for no reason.

i love to dream,a lot. and its just in my dreams,

wont happen in reality. sooo, too bad.

i wish i cn dream and nv wake up. tht'll be awesome.

world cup is crappy.

andand to those who haf nt watched karate kid,

you guys should watch. its awesome! and smith really knows

how to act. seriously, whnever he cries, i cry. ): its just so sad.

HAHA! and th last part, i was so sacred, i cried so hard. i cried so hard tht

i tore of th packet whr you put th popcorn( idk wht tht thing is called -.-'')

while biting it. HAHA! really, it was soooooo sad. i could feel his pain.

okay,enough. go watch kay? -.-

bye morons.

2010-06-18T08:00:00.000-07:00

First of all, Hira and Alysa kicked start my day. Awesome!

So wht did they do tht was awesome? -.-

Hahaha, okay. I was sleeping and suddenly i heard birthday song.

I thought i was dreamin but no, i saw both of them carrying a birthday cake

singing birthday song! Sooo sweet! And it was like i had no idea and it was 9 in th

morning. Mygosh. Obviously i was shocked! So ate and all and they gt me breakfast too.

We shared. Thn they gt me a keychain and a shirt. Watched A-Team and Karate kid. A-team at TMall and Karate Kid at century square. Saw Amira, jaja, twins and huda. Saw, aliyah, amar and syafiqah. Hahaha! Karate Kid was awesome! And J Smith is sooooooo cute and hot!

Seriously maannnnnn! But! Bieber is wayyy better baby! Yes, tht was wht we did today,

on my birthday. this was the awesomest birthday ever i guess! But both of them are the greatest gift of all. i love you guys with all my heart!

Byebye!

p/s; it was despicable me -.-

2010-06-17T10:32:00.001-07:00

-look how much ive grown! -.- so cute! hahaha!

hello world! i am soooooooo happy!

soooo, i came back at ard 1am? yeaa.

today was awesome! i went for th class bb eventually as i was forced to. o.o

i haf th sweetest frds i swear! sooo, waited for nisa and den went to pasir ris. met up

with liza and ophee. went in and we...talked. it was rlly boring, really.

den i walked ard and helped yi jin with th bbq. Den they started playing with

th sprayspray thing. omg, so funny. -.- didnt take any pics. ): but sharuddin did.

Den they brought in th birthday cake. so sweet, and it was jing wei's birthday too.

so, HAPPY BIRTHDAY JING WEI! I HOPE YOU HAD A BLAST WITH US!

MAY ALL YOUR WISHES COME TRUE MY DEAR FRIEND!

and today is my birthday, heeeee :D aft tht we talked and talked all th way.

den nisa and liza went home and i stayed. was th only girl, scary i tell you.

it was ard 10+ whn nisa and liza went. so you guys might be wonderin why i didnt

went home. because nobody was at home. my parents went jb. -.-

soooo i waited for thm to fetch meee. So me, cher siang, zheng ming, zong wei and melvin

played bowling. cher siang treat me. so nice :D thanks! so played and played and it was ard 12+.

wheeee, i won ^^v went out and they checked out th movies. i wanna watch undespicable me.

whn its out la. duh. -.- soooo cute! den they all sent me to tha bus stop.

hahaa, and mummy was like ........... seriously, i swear. she was shouting frm th car

'' cher siang, bye! zheng ming, bye! melvin, zong wei, bye! thank you uh! ''

i was like o.o and i guess all of thm was like o.o as well. so weird la.

andand to those who wished me, THANK YOU VERY MUCH, I APPRECIATE IT

AND I LOVE YOU WITH ALLLLL MY HEART!

and thank you guys for th awesome day and gem and zong wei and cher siang for th present

bye sweethearts!

2010-06-17T01:30:00.000-07:00

hi, i feel so blue. ):

nt gg out. nt even to th bbq or chalet since hira's nt gg.

i dowan to go alone la. blom mandi pon. -.-

nth much happened. i want to go to shekyn's hse again.

i want to play bowling. im looking forward to next friday.

outing with thm la. wheeeee!

seriously, i think im gg to get into depression la like this.

and im nt looking forward to my birthday either.

nobody cares. ): sad eh? this is gg to be my worst

birthday ever.! and i cant watch th world premiere.

and spain lost. assholeeeeeeeee. kay, im being such a bitch.

i just want one thing for my birthday, justin bieber ^^

i want a birthday party like last year. kay shuddup.

bye wankers.

2010-06-15T08:17:00.000-07:00

2010-06-15T05:35:00.000-07:00

helloooooo. my birthday's comin baby!

haha, so im finally at home. i was at shekyn's for th past 4 days.

it was..fun. haha, duh. -.- on sundayy, we went bowling. mygod. i swear i was

sucha noob. seriously but i wanna go again, eh shekyn. hahaha.

didnt do anything much. but i forgot which day was it. it was like ard 11pm, gg to 12mn.

we went 7-11, den suddenly thr was this dog on th loose. walauweii, i swear it was so scary.

sume step cool je, padehal dlm hati. HAHAHA! Stupid owner. luckily nth happened. and at last i got my ice lemon tea. HAHA! just now went out with kak ayu and shekyn den met mummy

at city square. ate den went home. Yeaaa, i am pissed. stupid computerrrrrrrr!

having class bbq, dunno when -.- hahahahhahh, shuddup.

bye wankers.

2010-06-11T10:31:00.000-07:00

this is wht you call pure cuteness, hotness.

abc, 123.kay shuddup. being lame hre.

currently at shekyn's.nt at home, i miss mummy.

seriously, stop it aqilah.-.-

i haf to tell someone abt this. i cannot bottle up everything inside me.

I LOVE JUSTIN BIEBER SO FUCKING MUCH!.

i mengidam ice lemon tea 7-11. skrg si ayumi dgn shekyn is chitchatting

hahaha, and its like 1.37am. bagos. nt sleepy yet.

okay la, bye.

justin bieber so fucking cute.

2010-06-07T22:04:00.000-07:00

hi, long time no update. okay, maybe not.

for th last few days, i was down with fever. )':

and i was having headache and sore throat.

now fever gone but headache and sore throat isnt going away.

like tht how? alamak. Shekyn is now at my hse. i wanna slpover at her hse. I think

it has been 1 yr since i last went cck. hahaha

yesterday went jb, and guess what?! i saw two shoes, just like bieber's.

Each cost 400+. (Y) Who wants to buy for me? hahaha, joking -.-

so boring. no one called or text. no one. except for mamat and kak ayu.

and cn you like believe it?! holiday is like ending in two weeks time and i lost my hws.

baik. kay bye. i wanna slp.

2010-06-04T08:50:00.000-07:00

eee, im sad. Everyone is still not over camp. im gg to miss camp manymany. )':

I wanna go again. I also miss Kampong Pelegong. Ishh.

I think im gg to be sick and now im having sore throat and my eyes feel so hot.

Idk why. den tmr gt flag day and aft tht gt wedding[?] .

Sunday sleepover at iqbal's. monday JB. I want a holiday like summer.

i want to migrate, seriously, i swear. to australia maybe. whr nobody knows me.

Nvm, be positive. I want camp again. I miss every single thing, campfire, JustinBieber cheers.

Lazy la nk pergi tmr. Kay bye.

ilovejustinbiebermanymany

2010-06-02T23:24:00.001-07:00

aaahhhh, it feels so good to be home but im gg to miss camp for sure.

I swear, camp was awesome! Wooooo! Especially campfire, mygod!

I tell you th exciting part for each day luh eh.

Day 1

im in Group 2. Jun Hui and Khairul were such gentlemen.

HAHAHA! Had nightwalk, halfway my blindfold fell, somebody pull -.-

Den bathed, punye ramai org and toilet also smelly.

Heheh, had fun in th toilet. xD NOT.

Den lights out, i cant slp. Very hard leh.

Day 2

Did rope challenge. I swear it was soo scary. So scary tht i cried. And furthermore,

th pole was moving. Lps tu tinggi plk tu. Den i couldnt even sit on it. Suddenly

Jie Liang came up and i started crying. -.- i was scared tht he might kick me off or smth and i jumped. I thought i was gg to die. Scaryyyyyy! We also did abseiling. It was scary

but i didnt cry. Aft tht, we had a race. Race against time. Very fun luh,

like amazing race liddat. Den we went into th milo pool!

Fun i swear! but scary also la. I went twice and th slide is like soooo

slippery. and th mud was eew but fun ?

Den washed up and got ready for campfire!

campfire was th awesomest of thm all.

Group 1&2 ftw!

We sang, we danced, we partyy! Like literally, we partied.

we sang lady gaga's song luh, sean kingston luh.

But seriously, who didnt attend th camp, its a regret.

Fantastic, Awesome, Fantabulous!

Day 3 , last day, )':

During breakfast, kiki asked our grp who like Justin Bieber?

Duh. who else. hahaha! Den he was like '' I hate Justin Bieber ''

And den i started th cheer; '' Justin Bieber Is The Best, Justin Bieber Beat The Rest! ''

Wooooooooo! Go Justin Bieber!

Aft tht we had to clean tha toilet. Boys toilet, so dirty.

Den had prize presentation and

*drumm roll*

GROUP 2 WON!

woooooo! so happy, duh!

den its time to go home, alahai, so sad )':

Reached sch got report book.

Now im home. So good to be home. i hope i cn remember th cheers and all, for memories xD

I swear im so lame. Those who didnt go, ive gt to tell ya, too bad. Serious.

kay bye.

2010-05-31T07:11:00.000-07:00

wuddhup.

yesterday was great. cousins came.

had fun and all.
just now, didnt go anywhere and tmrw's camp and im oh so excited!

at th same time scred, aft hearing wht shekyn said. hmmm

andand on 5th june haf flag day some more, i wanna go in th morning whn thrs little ppl.

actually i wanna go flea market luh. hehehhee.

cannot wait. :D

kay bye

2010-05-28T23:49:00.000-07:00

Hehehehehe! im excited!

dunno why. ohoh, th news, yg ade satu bdk mati in her sleep )':
she just came back frm swimming and she slept and thn she died in her sleep.

who would haf thought tht tht was th last time he/she was to experience you know, th world.

so moral of the story, live like thrs no tomorrow, appreciate. [?] appreciate everyone while you cn.

so sad. i do not wanna die.

ive always wondered if thrs anyone in heaven right now. if thrs anyone in hell right now.

how hell is like?

jail?

how heaven is like?

clouds?

i haf no idea.

okay, lets look on th bright side or th dark side.

okay, crap.

i wanna go suntec bsk, with mummy. ):

hehehehehe, i haf plans up my sleeves.

2010-05-27T07:07:00.000-07:00

hello

today marks the last day of sch.

unfortunately, thrs camp, so we'll haf to come to sch.

im looking forward to it.

So just now in sch nth much happened.

yeaa, nth much.

aft sch, met with asyiqin and nadiah.

goshh, miss thm so much.

its nice to be with thm for awhile.

So we went orchard and we got lost -.-

at last, found far east plaza but couldnt find th shop i was looking for >:(

so, we went to city hall. had our lunch at mac. at city hall station, thr was this lady who wanted to take a picture of us. Hahahaha! den i started imagining wht if tht lady was related to JB and blablabla.. -.- Went to suntec and got lost again.

At last found dc. My god, i wanna get those shoes! Pleasepleaseplease! ):

my birhday's comin soon xD

HAHAHAHAHA, joke -.-

So it was a fine day with those due ekor, haha, joking. those two girls.

now im sweating. so hot.

kay bye

2010-05-25T06:40:00.000-07:00

so fkn cute! andand i saw his vid alr. Alahai..

hey. today was fine. Today ms yuen was not being herself. for some weird reasons. She allowed us to do our own stuffs. Cool kan?! Sooo yeaa. Wheee! Cca was awesome today and i swear i suckk

at freestyling. )': gotta push myself harder. unfortunately, cca was in th hall today and soo i was

sweating. i hate it! Okay, nvm. somehow, i dun like Mr F. And i still haf nt gotten back my phone )':

I miss my phone sooo much ):

Kay, shuddup. Bye.

2010-05-23T07:13:00.000-07:00

2010-05-23T05:43:00.000-07:00

hahahahahahaha! it has been such a long time since i last played. Soo true, i always do tht.

Funn :D

so hello.

forgot wht happened yesterday.

So today, i was being such an asshole.

I didnt go for th bbq? Yeaa, sorry.

Just tell me if ure pissed. Dun pretend tht ur nt whn you actually

are. Prolly ur so pissed tht you wont wake me up tmrw.

Nvm, i wanna miss sch tmr, so i dun mind.

But still, im sorry, frm th bottom of my heart.

Happy Birthday to ur sis. Hope you'll had fun.

Yeaa, call me a coward.

So went to iqbal's hse. Den to atok mak's.

sooo yeaa. at atok mak's, all of em was talking abt marriage o.o

Oh oh! Funny convo in th car while waiting for th traffic light.

Baba: Alamaak, da gemok nk pakai gtu.

Me: Dhe nye pasal la -.-"
in my head: * say ppl say urself * haha!

Baba: kau nk pakai gtu?
Me: Nak! :P * joking only*
Baba: *sigh* You look stupid la, like an asshole

Me: o.o

Haha, since whn was baba liddat? o.o
Actually th girl who was crossing th traffic light was wearing a dress which revealed her

thigh which wasnt so nice. So rude eh my dad :P

Okay bye. i haf wonderful frds.

2010-05-21T06:18:00.000-07:00

Finally, the week is over. seriously

i think this week was th week tht i cried th most.

Everyday i cried. Even on Tuesday. hehe

Okay, im nt gg to look back anymore.

So im looking forward to upcoming events.

Like th ones in December. -.-

eee, normal lessons next week?!

nvm, 4 days, cn survive. Its okay

Ive nt told my parents abt my exam scripts.

I shall die. Okay, bye.

iloveJustinBieber

2010-05-19T06:47:00.000-07:00

)':
today was basically a screwed up day.

Got our history, lit, MT and english.

I did badly for all. reeaallll bad.

i feel so..useless?

I cried, to make myself feel better.

During recess, i broke down. Nt because of my results. -.-

But my life. Yeaaa, but i know im very lucky.

These days, or perhaps, all this while, a lot of people has been ignoring me.

And whn i say a lot means like a whole lot.

Everyone has been ignoring me.

And now i haf no one to talk to abt all my sufferings and i am very glad to haf 2 fabulous frds who had always been thr with me all this while.

Hira and Alysa. both of them mean so much to me. i'd die if you know, if i were to loose thm.

Since many ppl has been ignoring me and during june holidays, th asses and i wont spend too much time together, im gg to get into a depression.

I'd be in a deeeep, deeep depression tht i'll die.

But before i die, i want to meet justin bieber first. and im gg to work sooo hard for final yr in case im nt gg to die.

im such an asshole

on a happier note, at least, i cant wait for a few events tht will soon come such as level camp.

Im looking forward to it. And flag day? okay, thrs no reason to be happy abt it -.-

oohh, and some dance events.

i swear ive missed out a lot on dance. i miss dancing. I miss those ppl in dance class.

i miss Miss Theresa )':

I wanna dance my heart and everything out, before i die.

Andand, justin bieber will be on american idol. Again! Now, thts something to be happy abt.

Oh, i love Justin Bieber

bye

2010-05-18T07:03:00.000-07:00

Damn, so hot! this BieberFever aint goin awayyy

AAAAAHHHHHHH. IM FCKN EXCITED!

Okay, chill

Today, went to T3 and i swear it was sooooooooooo boring.

Its math, wht do you expect? tskk

Aft tht went to th library, got some books.

While waiting for alysa, Crystal told me smth tht made me cry.

Omg, it was tears of joy. For th first time in my life, i cried tears of joy.

I swear i was ssssssoooooooooooo freaking happy, ecstatic. actually no words could describe how happy i was. It felt like i was in heaven for a few seconds!

I wanna cry again. i cant believe it! Omg, those whom i told, shutzzzz!

Dun spread th wordddd.

I LOVE JUSTIN DREW BIEBER SO MUCH!

HOW MUCH? INFINITE!
<3<3<3<3

2010-05-17T06:01:00.001-07:00

2010-05-17T05:43:00.000-07:00

alamak, so cute! ehhh. i wanna go to tht place up thr.

I want tht ' Leave It To Bieber '

and i also wanna buy My Worlds

Sooooo, today went AngMoKio

Seriously, i swear. Thrs a lot of staring here and thr.

Gt lots of those kind of ppl who loves to stare. You know la who

Nvm, waited for mummy. Ate at LJS

and den home. Actually did some stuffs la in between. lazy la to elaborate

Aiyaya, tmrw terminal 3 la. how?

I wanna watch The last Song. Ishhh

kay bye

2010-05-16T08:19:00.000-07:00

Lady Gaga, so weird yet so cool. -.-

Anws, today was AWESOME!

not.

It was boringggg, how i wished thr was sch tmrw since exam's overr.

So just now, sent abg > atok's hse > gemok's hse > shop > home

Sent abg in th evening. So wondering wht i did in th aftnoon?

Nothingggg -.-

Currently listening to JustinBieber station.

Awesome. Ive been listening to radio stations lately, dunno why.

Especialy 98.7

Ooohhhh, J.Lo and JBieber is somehow related. Coolshit

Ohoh! Abg is getting engaged soooon. Hahhahahahaa.

I cant wait for him to get married. hmmmm

Oh, and baba is planning to get a new hse. in 6 yrs time -.-

At lastttt, no more studying. yet.

Its nt th enddd. Uhh, dammit. Seriously

Sooooo boreddddddd.

Omg, terminal 3 oon tuesday, the heck?

Maths trail. Maths!

Eeeee, kay bye.

You just wasted your time

2010-05-15T06:46:00.000-07:00

:O !

2010-05-15T05:54:00.000-07:00

Eee, very bored. So basically did nth. Ooohhhh, i watched back up plan and kick ass. Hahaha, both okay laaa. So i had my haircut. Now i haf a screwed up hair. Seriously serious.

It is sooo short now and my bangs are like o.o
Its frkng uglayeeeeeeee. Whtever luh. Omg, veryyyy hungryyyy.

Aahhh, im so bored tht i could cry. Okay, im hungry, wanna eat
bye.

2010-05-15T05:03:00.000-07:00

2010-05-14T23:29:00.000-07:00

Aaahh, soo cute!

So anws, helloooo.

Yesterday was our last paper which was math p2. It was screwed, i guess.

Aft sch went hm and started fb and also catch up on loads of stuffs. den ard 1pm i guess,

met hira and alysa. and also salman, very cute! So went to century cineplex for The Last song. Guess wht? Dun haf! walaoooo. Swear i was very pissed! We went to golen v at tm. Dun haf also.

So we had no idea wht to watch. So at last, watched The Losers. Ive gotta say tht it was amazing. Hahaha! '' Imma legal killing machine. '' -.-

Okay yea, it was hilarious. No regrets. Recommended. Den aft tht went swimming.

Aaahhh, it has been such a long time since i last swam. Hahaha! Very nicee.

aft tht went to hira's. We ate thr and we talkied. Her sisters are so pretty! Andand we had story-telling sessions. Omg, and i went home like a 15-20 minutes to midnight. I swear walking in th park at 11.35++ is freaking scary.

So basically, yesterday was a fun day with th asses but w/o bomby. awwww

Today, i wanna go for a haircut. Idk la.

Okay, very hot la. Byeeee

2010-05-12T22:03:00.000-07:00

Belated Birthday to Shasha

This yr PSLE kan? Yea, you're gg to ace it :D

Masok la Junyuan yerr xD

Haha, stay pretty and study hard!

I love you!

-Sorry, malas la nk rotate :P

Now, serious business. I think i screwed most of my exam papers.

Math P1 was alright but 1 hour? )': Tk cukop laaaa -.-

Lit was nonsense.

History. Wht were they asking?! Especially th picture. How the hell do you explain statues of soldiers only? If you give me Justin Bieber's pic alone i cn understand la. One foolscap also not enough. -.-

Okay, why am i talking like this.

Just now, Science. Nothing, idk wht to say.

Somehow, im nt scred for math P2 tmrw. And im suppose to be studying, omg.

Yayyyy! Just 1 and half hour more to freedom! Kekekekekkeke!

We have a Justin Bieber look-alike in our sch

:O !

2010-05-07T23:59:00.000-07:00

)':

oh, thrs thunder )':

2010-05-07T22:39:00.000-07:00

I wanted to tell this yesterday but blogger was giving problems -.-''

wtf much? im pissed. but at the same time im nt. Justin Bieber isnt th only male who was on this list. Lady Gaga counts as a male too! Prove ;

Wow! ‘Poker Face’ singer Lady GaGa reportedly revealed she is a hermaphrodite or “intersexual”, which means she has both female and male genitalia, after an accident where her small male bits made a special appearance at a music festival (video below) in Glastonbury, England.

Lady GaGa allegedly wrote about the incident:

“Its not something that I’m ashamed of, just isn’t something that i go around telling everyone. Yes. I have both male and female genitalia, but i consider myself a female. Its just a little bit of a penis and really doesn’t interfere much with my life. the reason I haven’t talked about it is that its not a big deal to me. like come on. its not like we all go around talking about our vags. I think this is a great opportunity to make other multiple gendered people feel more comfortable with their bodies. I’m sexy, I’m hot. i have both a poon and a peener. big f*cking deal.”

Nvm, im suppose to be studying now. Actually i am but nt fully. Eh, very tired.

I wanna study tmrw. Anyone? Please, desperate. Kay bye.

2010-05-07T05:34:00.000-07:00

Today was a short day. Aft sch had math tuition in th sch library. I didnt know tht our sch library was actually th best place tht you could ever concentrate. Okay, no but still better thn okay nvm. Hahaha! I got a news frm alysa, fraking hilarious! Awwww, congrats. My time will come soon :P HAHAHAHA! Okay, serious. i cant believe tht exams are in two days time and im still nt sure abt th simultaneous crap. D:<>Math, pls be nice to me. Okay, crap. Bye

2010-05-06T07:09:00.000-07:00

Things i need to do within this three days ;

- give 100% attention in class tomorrow
- Have an intense tuition from anyone on math, by hook or by crook
- do a mind map for science and find all my physics notes
- complete everything tht isnt completed ( esp. math )
- understand fully, like really, really understand algebra.
- go re-discover wht simultaneous equation is
- complete all the practices in math textbook
- f.o.c.u.s.
- be prepared for math

Yes, its mostly math. It is my worst subject. Th only subject tht i failed D:<
I seriously have to get everything in my head by Sunday. How?
I seriously need some discipline. I hope thrs nth tht is gg to tempt me frm switching on the computer. Other thn JustinBieber thn its okay. No, Aqilah shut up. Discipline. In times like this, Bieber can wait. o: I didnt just said tht.
Just 1 week and everything will be over and im gg to tremendously well for my exams -.-''
Seriously, positive. Appreciate everything. hahh, no linkk.
And oh, i enjoyed lit very much today and also f&n. the brownies were delicious :P

2010-05-05T03:14:00.000-07:00

wuddhup. iamsoscrewed. Anyways, i enjoyed today's assembly very much. Th h word. Nth much happened during lesson except th during IT, i biebered! :D I swear in eenie meenie mv he is so freaking cute! Seriously. Soo cute tht i could cry. I am sort of proud of myself. Went home aft sch and studied. For like more thn 1 hour! :D Hehehehehehehhe, but ive gotta admit it was pretty boring. It was so boring tht i stopped. And also i stopped because i was alone at hm and thr was no one to teach me ): What in the world? Okay, i am very sleppy. Bye.
ilovejustinbieberbitstopieces:D

2010-05-03T01:54:00.000-07:00

omg, kim kardashian is sooooo gorgeous! So no plans for today, dammit. D:<
I wanted to go orchard with ibu but mummy didnt wake me up. See, now im stuck at home.

Did i update blog yesterday? Shld be. Oh ya, i did. You know, lately, ive been very emotional.

Heheh, i dunno why. Yesterday i watched enchanted den i started tearing up. Den in th morning i started crying because mummy said we're nt gg out today. -.-'' And just now i watched one show. Its abt a boy who suffers frm blood disorder. Despite of having this sickness, he is determined to be like othr kids just like us. I started tearing up againnn. i was inspireddddd. Not forgetting, JustinBieber has inspired me soo much. Really, i swear. Even a book has inspired me. Cool aye.. So many things and so many ppl has inspired me. Even ppl whom i do not know.

ive learnt a lot frm life. thr are still so much more for me to learn. I know, there are more to life than JustinBieber.. Hahhaahhaa. Okay laaa. I came across a someone's tumblr and saw this ;

'' I blog not to impress but to express ''

I couldnt agree more. Inspired. Haha, im so lame. Kay bye...

2010-05-02T07:54:00.000-07:00

ILOVEJUSTINBIEBER

2010-05-02T06:59:00.000-07:00

wheeeee! i love JustinBieber bits to pieces! So anws, watched kudekepang, telong? Agknye la tuu. Actually this was nth compared to th one i watched at cck. Aft tht went masjid sultan, okay nt really th masjid but somewhr near thr. th thing is i went thr with shekyn's fam. haha! cool? Den went to sofiahs and aft tht iqbal's. Tmrw idk whts th plan. Maybe tuition? at hira's? Or orchard with mummy and ibu? Or out with mummy's frd? Hahahhaa, idk.

Okay laaa, someday im g to meet JustinBieber, iknowiwill.

I wanna live in a fairytale where

there are prince charming or fairy godmother

where they live in castles and your sisters are princesses

and your mummy will be the queen while ure dad is the king

where animals can talk

where everything ends with

happily ever after...

2010-05-01T10:03:00.000-07:00

hello world! tmrw watching maybe watching kudekepang. I think la. Hehe, skeyn skg ade pt sini, asleep alr. Okay, ive gt some other things to do and i just realised tht now my posts are really short. Whtever la eh, nobody visit this blog also. Evidence? Tagboard is dead.
I think i have no life, telling people wht is happening in my life. -.-''
Nvm, contradicting much? Im still gg to post.

Omg! Loving eenie meenie mv! I am so jealous and their dance are awesome!

Kay, bye

2010-04-30T08:20:00.001-07:00

Ive been deprived of JustinBieber for idk how many days.

Hahahaha. since i was very slow, i just discovered how to upload pic directly frm

its original place. whtever tht meant.

Aint jasmine v. gorgeous? I am so jealous.

Andandand, i found out new secrets abt JB. Yea right.

For me to know, for you to find out :D

2010-04-30T07:29:00.001-07:00

2010-04-30T06:38:00.000-07:00

2010-04-29T07:06:00.001-07:00

Cool aye? Hehehehe, I know. I want those can? So just now went to develop pics with hira. I feel so sleepy..
I am very surprised. It is unbelievable tht our class, 2e1, won th best class award, th reacycle thingy and th cross country thingy. Hehehehe! Ms Lee said we're gg to so-called celebrate during cft tmrw. Andand i am also surprised tht i got silver for napha. however you spell it la. I am so tired and sleepy. Today i swear our class was dead. Everyone was like all moody in th morning which was so not usual. Hahh, whtever la. And damn, im suppose to be studying for a math test tmrw. You see la, no wonder i failed math tests. -.-'' Omg, i rlly nd to push myself and make use of this one week wisely. I hope i cn survive by nt switching th computer. And im v happy tht hira's sis would like to tutor us :D Thanks very much! I love th asses like a lot! Someday i'll feature thm okay? Maybe aft exams.. Hehehe!

Kay bye!

ILOVEJUSTINBIEBER!

2010-04-29T02:57:00.000-07:00

meeting hira soon i guess. Her sis is coming back tmrw. Omg! Nth much happened except tht my grp needed to stay back for history because we failed th history test -.-

Oh! Thr was fire alarm just now. i swear i was being super lame. Den we were asked to sit at th field for almost 1 hour. walao, panas tau tk. But its okay cos since hira and i sat with zheng ming and jun hao. Hahahaha! Hilarious. They shld haf this thingy often so ppl can, you know, get use to it. xD Hhehehehe.

2010-04-28T06:32:00.000-07:00

True much, world's gg to end, soon. Scary isnt it? Th thought of it send shivers down my spine. Now different topic. Stop hating, th hate will come back to you sooner or later. Wht goes ard comes ard. I hope karma will slap you hard on th face. On second thought, maybe not. But i believe in karma.

On a happier note, they played JB's songs during recess. Awww.. Hehehe. You had no idea how excited i was. Not sure why. during IT, biebered :D English was fun. Assembly? Okayy la.

Went ikea aft sch.

2010-04-26T07:12:00.001-07:00

Wow, it has been how many days since i posted anything?

6? Whtever.

So much things happened within these 6 days, i guess.

Had our english and mt paper. Dammit, i think i screwed it. Its over anws so yeaa.

On Friday also, met hira and accompanied her to find narmeen's birthday present with alysa.

Den went to her hse. Thr, met bomby and guess who else i met?

Yusof's sister! Gorgeous or what. For now, i wont be uploading pictures since

you know, my phone. So yea. I miss my phone.

On Saturday, had cross country, very tiring and den went home and slept.

Met shekyn and den to Iqbla's hse and slept over thr. On Sunday,

we went to Airport>Geylang>Tampines.

Very very very very tiring.

Today, nth much happened except th i gt my math test which i failed, again -.-

Got my camarks and i was surprised, very surprised. To me, i did

quite well for my lit and history. Hahahha!

Okay, i failed my math, only. Hahh.

I really wanna buck up. Okay, i'll be forcing myself not to switch on th computer this week.

GoodBye.

Deprived of JustinBieber):

HAHA!

2010-04-20T05:46:00.000-07:00

Hmmmm, very hectic. not. anws, life's like usual. On monday, i looked like a retard, i made myself look stupid. I wore new uniform and skirt. I fell in frnt of manymany ppl. Fckn embarrssing i tell you. Andd, my phone was cnfoscated, but i dun give a flying carebearr. The cool side of me..not. Yea, as i was saying, cool. I played in th rain. it felt wonderfulllllll! Hahahaha! Today was okay. Dammit, i shouldnt haf came. i woke up late and thus, i looked hideous in th morning cos i was rushin. Okay, Ms Yuen is crazy i guess. In two days time, we're having our english midyear exams and she still gives us a english homwork, at least 300 words, compo. How to do?! Okay, i wanna do my hw, seriosuly. Bye. BieberBlast Ha! HAHAHAHAHAHA!, kay bye.

2010-04-17T00:05:00.000-07:00

Imma total failure, dammit. Lots of thoughts has been jumping in my mind lately. Im trying to change for the better. Like wht they say ' the time is always right to do the right thing' or smth like tht. This is probably nt th right way to sart out. Hahh, like i care. There's this feeling tht i get tht im th odd one out. I do not know whts up with me. I dun understand myself. What are my goals, wht i want in life. Its very annoying. I give up too easily. I run away from all my problems. Everywhere i go, i'll see love. lovelovelove. Is that wht i want in life? Obviously not. I want it, i guess but its pretty much nt th right time, yet. Studies. that has kept me occupied. Really, really occupied. You can call me a loser for tht. Now wht am i doing here? Bragging about how much life is being unfair? Omg, haf i ever thought tht there might be others's whose case are might worst thn mine. How unthoughtful, inconsiderate and selfish of me. Wake up Aqilah. Dun be such a loser and gve up easily. I feel like shit now. I want to be evryone's frd. I do nt like being hated. Im trying my best to be very nice. I wanna grow up and show ppl tht im nt tht pathetic girl anymore. I know tht theres more to life. I should appreciate wht i haf and stop bragging so much. Ive been such a bitch.

Shut up Aqilah.

I love life the way it is.

Yea right......

2010-04-15T06:23:00.000-07:00

Today wasnt a good day .

Hira wasnt here and i was all lonely . Takecare and get well soon my ass (:

And i broke down into tears during maths .

I was shocked . I felt normal whn i saw , den i saw my classmates marks .

I thought to myself , '' why am i even in this class ? ''

Its rlly sad . )': But ive gt to say tht im lucky to be in this class .

today some of my classmates showed their soft side . they were all so sweet .

This post is dedicated to my dearest 2e1 !

Darryll Chok : You smarty pantsss . You are just very smart . Someday you can teach me aye :P

Rizky : Hahaha , wooo ! You're funny , i like (: I dun mind hearing dirty stuffs xD

Aretha : Hahaha ! Cuteee , thanks for th card , im like it . A lot THANKS !

Khairul : You very tall , im gg to be taller (: Haha !

Fazli : You very weird but very nice . Hahah ! Thanks for th tissue . hehehehe

Junaliza : hey bitch , joking . Hahaaha thanks okay , i love you . Loads , i swear .

Cindy : Thanks for catchong my flying kisses ! You very chioo . Hehehe , you can also teach me okay , smart girl .

Wan Ning : Eventho we're nt close , you helped in one way or another , appreciate it !

Zheng Ming : You everytime ignore me but its okay , i forgive you .

Ophee : Yiu are actually very nice . Very very nice ! Thank you very muchhh !

Aisyah : Hahaha ! Thanks for th msg . I still love you !!

Yi Na : Im gg to miss cooking with you and thanks . I appreciate for whtever you've done for me

Hareez : hahahahahahhaa , ure scary but still , thanks very much !

Hong Beng : Hey , you are very kind indeed ! Dun tear my kiss okay . HAHA !

Lewis : im scared of you but you have entertained me somehowwww , thankssss ! :D

Yi Jin : you must teach me okay ! :P Thanks for th pringless !

Jing wei : Oohhhhh , my IT partner , thank you for helping me in IT class ! Very much appreciated .

Yusof : You're very intimidating . but still , thank you very much for everything .

Hira : I'll give you a personal one okay ! Too much to list ! Love ya !

Zhi yao : Wowww , you always there uh , to answer my question in msn . Sorry for everything , thanks !

Joel : hahaha , eventho i laughed at you whn rizky called you walking fishball , you're still very cute . Way to go my lvpl buddy !

Ye Kai : You are very funny indeed and also very nice ! Talk to you more soon ! Hahaha !

Nisa : My dearest partner ! Lets listen music in class again okay ! Hahahaha ! Thank you for everythingggggg !

Syah : awww , ure actually very sweet ! Thankyouverymuch !

Gem : it ok if you think sunny is sexier thn jb , i forgive you xD hahaha , dun be so unappreciative uh ! :P

Hafidzah : Sorry la eh , and thanks uh for hitting my back real hard ! Hahahhahaha !

Keith : We've nt been talking but still thanks for being a frd to me . Hehehhee

Cher Siang : Hahhaa , my mummy says you must teach meeee xD Haha , joking . Thankyouverymuchyou're very nice !

Darryl Cheong : Oohhhh , you called me dirty bitch . Hahaha , joking . Thanks uh for th laughs , i dun mind you calling me tht . HAHA !

Sharuddin : Eventho ure very sick in th mibd , ure very kind . Nvm , work harder , harder thn me HAHA !

Qi hang : I forgive you for taking my wallet evrytime and saying tht justinBiebr shuks , yea , sucks with th 'h' , shucks . Hahahaa !

Guo An : alamak , flat hair is nicer laa . Hahahhaa ! Thanks evil frd !

Zong Wei : You cn still call me oompaloompa , i dun mind . Hahahaha !

Raudhah : Someday you teach me korean luh ehh xD HAHAHAHA !

Jun Hao : Eh , anthr tall one . Nvm , you think you tall cn bully me uh ? HAHA ! Whtever la eh , thanks anws . for evrything !

Razif : Eventho very annoying but you're actually very nice . Awww , im so sweet ! xD

Yee Tong : Thabks for lending me all th coloured markers . xD And you're very ...... funny !

Melvin : I dun talk to you tht much but i noe you're very kind . hehehehhehe !

Chong Jin : Insult justinbieber all you want la , i dun care . HAHAHAHA !

I didnt miss out anyone did i ?

Hahhaa , i love 2e1 verymuch and am very glad to be in this class eventhough

i know im nt suppode to . Thanks !

i love you all , angels in disguise !

2010-04-14T06:24:00.000-07:00

Hmph . cnnt upload pictures .

Anws , sch was hmmmm ...

unexpectedly fun today . Hahaha !

I enjoyed mt , drama , history , IT , english and assembly !

Lemme elaborate on eng and assembly .

During eng , listened to some topic conversations .

Den th teacher asked : whts your favourite spot ?

Student : hmmm , hmmm , swimming

Teacher : no , no , i mean your favorite spot at th beach .

HAHAHAA !

He thought sport. Okay , whtever .

Assembly ! Got JUSTINBIEBER !

hahahahahhaa !

They played We Are The World .

Cool or whutt ?

Den JUSTINBIEBER'S part , i think everyone shouted .

I screameddddd ! Hahahahhaa , wow .

It was so fun . Hahahah !

Aft sch went McD with yijin , hira and alysa .

Aft tht they went to my hse . Hahaha !

Im very happy today . I sent many flying kisses to many ppl .

I sent it to Mr Huang also . HAHAHA !

Thrs more to come tmrw :D

Okayy byeeee , i wanna study okay ?

NOT ! :P

Oh ya , i need to study . anyone wanna sacrifice their fridays for me ? hahahaha .

This goes out to especially hira and alysa . :D

Andand i cant believe tht im taking part in th flags / flag ? day . whtever crap

-.-''

and another thing , i think this weekend got rewang . oh how i miss rewang . hahaha

I wanna go . $$$ comin my way -.-

Hahahahah ! Shekyn , shasha , kak ayu , gi rewang kan ??

Hehehhee

ILOVEJUSTINBIEBER !

2010-04-12T07:32:00.000-07:00

Hahahhahaa , everyone wants to wake up at 12 midnight . My dad and mummy and meee .

Okay bye , i wanna slp now . Later at 12 i wake up . :D

2010-04-12T07:02:00.000-07:00

On saturday , went to kak ya's hse . Int h evening laa . Den yesterday

went to vivo with shekyn and kak ayu and mummy . Waahhhh , rindu seh .

Shekyn was searching for her pencil case ? Yea , and ive yet to give kak ayu and shekyn a birthday present . Hehehehe , soooon i tell you .

Lps tu gi rmh iqbal , awww tht cute boy . Hahahahah !

Ohmyyyyy

Today was v tiring . Wht a day .

Yeapp , should be .

I love english ! Ms Yuen was looking very cute ! Talking abt celbrities and i shouted JustinBieber ! Aaaahhhhhh , felt soo good . xD For f&n , teacher switch on ' we are the world ' .

Got JustinBieber luh of course !

I swear th peranakan trip was horrible .

I was starvingggg D: <>

th place was boring also .

Oh ya , p.e was sucha torture . Ran for 5 rounds and me being so dumb ,

didnt stop running . Luckily i passed and th time was faster . Hahh .

Never in my life haf i studied for at least 1 hr . Seriously , nt even 30 minutes .

Only today , i tried for 1 hr or so i guess , and it was anthr torture . Omg , how do you ppl survive . I keep staring into space and everything was a distraction .

I switch on music and i end up singing .... only . Hahh .

I am annoyed with myself . How to pass like this ?

I really need to pull my socks highhigh . I do nt want tuition but i want a tutor .

Hira ? Alysa ? Hahahaha , anyone ?

If i dun start now , im gg to fail , especially my maths .

And tmrw thrs a math test . Crapp , life is sooo wonderfulllll .

I love justinbieber !

very muchhh !

2010-04-09T06:57:00.000-07:00

eeee , gt anthr arsehole . urghh .

-.- nvm abt tht .

Sch was still as usual . Th only thing was , i won some prize for th bookmark . Haha ! It was scary being on stage . But i felt sickk aft mt .

Thn went hm aft sci . And i didnt bring my key and so i went to hira's hse .

Slept , den go to sch for th parentteachermeeting .

I swear th starting was rlly boring . Hahaha !

I wanna go 3e1 . Hehs .

Den mummy was v weird . Seriously .

She was talking abt justinbieber . o.o

Talked to Ms Lee and Ms Yuen

Both teachers said tht i submit work on time occasionally .

Whtever seh . Andand Ms Lee told mummy abt my maths test .

damn and den mummy went on and on and bablabla .

And now she wants me to go tuition . I do not want tuition !

)': Pleaseeee , i seriously do nt want tuition .

Nvm la . Okay i am eating now .

V hungry . Kay bye .

2010-04-08T06:33:00.000-07:00

Hahahahaha ! Oh , i love justinbieber .

He is just hilarious . Go watch him on youtube .

Hahahahaha ! ' Who's not old enough now , bitch '

Omg , seriously . Ok whtever .

Sch was okay as usual .

My angkukueh stink so much . ewwww .

Its disgusting .

Aft sch went to hira's . Hahahaha !

Funnyyyyyy xD

Okayy i am tireddd . Byeeee

Bieber or die !